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✍️ Original author: Anonymous

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Anyone else still here over 30? I had a mixed childhood where I was sheltered part of the time and abused the rest of the time. I got away from all of it as an adult and I was eventually pulled right back in by the same kind of people (including the same individuals in some cases). I have also made and lost millions and this point, which is apparently hard for the average pleb to even comprehend. What I’ve learned from this essentially amounts to the facts that people don’t change and that people are inherently corrupt or corruptible. It seems to require a lot of constant effort to rise above whatever impulses, tendencies and systems keep us where we are. It took me years of mindfulness exercises to better myself and when I finally ran into some of the losers I escaped from, they just found a way to drag me down again. I’m currently in the process of building back up for the nth time.

I don’t know how adult men are supposed supposed trust in this world. I’ve never met someone I could fully rely on to remain loyal. Parents, friends, lovers, they all eventually turn when the price is right or when it’s convenient, to say nothing of when there’s a cost or sacrifice associated with maintaining a relationship.

As an adult male, I seem to not only have no value to others outside of what I can produce, but I also have no value if my status is low and I don’t engage with all of these systems that are used by modern normalfags as social proof, like fashion trends and Instagram and knowing the latest ebonics meme, or caring about the current thing.

Am I alone in this experience? I feel like the better I’ve done, the more those same people who set out to cause me harm in the beginning wanted to tear me down. So many people even just get sadistic pleasure from adding a little kick to your ass on your way down, seemingly purely for the pleasure of doing so, even if the only benefit to them is a momentary rush and the cost to you is large and life altering

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